I love life. I have great people surrounding me and I love most of them. I've grown-up in the ministry though and so I've had to get used to those people going in and out of my life. Along with this it has brought trust issues. I want to trust people but its harder for me to trust and build relationships than for others. I've gotten close with people and finally built a really strong relationship with them just to be able to watch them walk right out of my life. Also, I've had people that I love hurt me the most. I wear my heart on my sleeve but too many people have taken advantage of that, saw it as my weakness and torn me down. I've grown to become a stronger person but I've also grown to guard myself and put up a clear wall so that I can see what is happening but be safe. the one thing that has gotten me through this other than God is music. It has the power to change a mood, make a rainy day sunny again. Music is one of the most powerful influences of today. Without having music play a HUGE I don't know where I would be today but I do know that I would not be the same girl I am today.
I've only told 3 people but I want to record a demo and try to make it in the music business. YES! MOM & DAD! THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED AT CONVENTION! I have wanted to tell you but I couldn't ever get you two in the same room at a good time when you were both in a good mood. I've had a feeling for about a year and a half to just try and let God have control over what happens. I didn't want to go after this if it was just Brooke talking but after prayer and fasting I really feel like God is in on this with me! I feel really comfortable in this and I know that I have people that will support me in whatever I choose to do. I've been working really hard with strengthening my voice and writing a lot lately. My heart is SO ready to commit to this. I know that this is my passion because I have this feeling of excitement, that everyday when I wake-up is another day I get to work towards this goal that won't shake, that hasn't ever gone away. I've really begin to know myself better than I ever have before. If I'm having a crappy day I write a song, if I'm having an awesome day then I write a song. I'm writing like crazy. I should probably stop but I just can't stop talking about it when I start haha
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Girl, I support you and your song writing. I would even try playing guitar with you sometime....and I don't EVER offer that to anyone!! I am a closet guitarist. You can come in the closet and I'll play for you. :)
Girl whatever your dreams and desires are, GO FOR IT! You can do it! I will stand behind you and also support you.
Courtney! You play guitar? NO WAY!!! I'm gonna have to come over some time and we can goof and write/play or something :D
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